Entitlement

Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.

June is the month where I am learning and processing Step 6 and this year is no different. This month, I have become freshly aware of the wisdom of this step because it reminds me that I need to understand the why behind my addiction. I need to understand the character defects that I have and become ready to have God remove them.

Today, I spent some time processing some character defects that were revealed to me last week as I was driving to work and anticipating the meetings and emails that I needed to respond to. I began to dread the day, feel anxious and resentful at the clients. I wanted to be left alone and allowed to escape. One of the most important lessons I have learned, among the many important lessons, is that if I am feeling disturbed, there is something wrong with me. In this case, the character defect at play was the feeling of entitlement. Feeling entitled means that I am owed something, for whatever reason. In this case, I was owed peace and quiet, even though I hadn’t done anything to earn that peace and quiet.

After talking this over with those close to me, I came to a place of awareness and surrender and my day turned out well!